Balancing Act

"Seek always, for by looking for one thing you will surely find another - this is the path to wisdom

I hate having to look for something - this will stress me out to no ends - for the most part I try to keep things organized. I am a very routine person, and I do not like to have my routine disrupted. I like having my days off and sometimes I pass on doing things with others just so I can have "me" time. This is when I get things done around the house, or just catch up on movies,or tv shows. I do try to ballance the time though - sometimes I need to clean and tidy up the home to make a less stressful place to come home to from the craziness of work, and then sometimes I need to be around other friends and loved ones to feel loved and "normal". I think the true wisdom is to keep everything in balance. This is truly a work of art and patience. I also need my job - this keeps me balanced with self worth - and sure comes in handy to buy groceries and pay the bills.

No wonder people have such high emotions anymore, it is getting very difficult to keep balancing all the needed things in our lives. I pray that the Lord continues to help me to keep walking the many pathways I need to travel through and continues to put lots of pretty flowers along the way for me to enjoy!!!!

My True Colors???(If the shoe fits)

you are steelblue #4682B4

Your dominant hues are cyan and blue. You like people and enjoy making friends. You're conservative and like to make sure things make sense before you step into them, especially in relationships. You are curious but respected for your opinions by people who you sometimes wouldn't even suspect. Your saturation level is medium - You're not the most decisive go-getter, but you can get a job done when it's required of you. You probably don't think the world can change for you and don't want to spend too much effort trying to force it. Your outlook on life is brighter than most people's. You like the idea of influencing things for the better and find hope in situations where others might give up. You're not exactly a bouncy sunshine but things in your world generally look up.

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Start Of A New Season

I had a very enjoyable vacation and rest. The weather was really nice, and it seems that we got to enjoy the last of the warm because ever since we have been back it has been cold. Ugh -- I hate the cold!!!! My first night back to work was a nightmare - as soon as I sat in my chair the phones were non stop ringing. What a wonderful "Welcome back". It was truly nice not having a phone for a whole week. I truly did not even have the urge to call anyone. Now that my rest time is over - I have the cold and the holidays to look forward to. I cannot believe that Christmas is almost here. I am not going to spend that much money this year - I have decided that gift cards are going to be my main gifts this year. I took a lot of pictures of the fall colors and it amazes me of the mixture of colors. We also walked into the woods,until we started running into the spiders and snakes. My husband got bit by a copperhead about 5 yrs ago and he was done with the walk as soon as we seen the snake. He did not enjoy the helicopter ride and the 4 days in the hospital. Neither one of us wanted to go through that again. Isn't the colors of nature sooo pretty though. It is amazing how the animals and insects can blend right in with the special colors. We had a storm come through on one night and we sat out on the patio and watched Gods fireworks - Totally Amazing. I am truly looking forward to my next vacation already - I believe it won't be until May though. We haven't started the reservations yet but we have discussed a trip to Texas. We have friends that live in Houston, Tx and we have not seen them for a couple of years. I am already liking the ideal of a beach and warm weather - maybe that will help me get through the snow and ice days ahead.

I have also done a lot of catch up reading since I have been back and Thanks again for the laughs,memories, and enjoyment!!!!

Twinkle -Twinkle - little stars

My weekend went by way too fast. How come the weekend doesn't go this quickly when I have to work them??

My hubby and I went to our place on the lake Sat night. We have about 6 couples that we hang out with, and 4 of them was down this weekend. We were cellebrating one of the ladies birthday Sat. We always have a wonderful time!! Relaxing by the fire and talking - laughing - singing. We all went down to the edge of the lake and sat by the water and under the stars. The weather was perfect not too cold and not too hot. We had a nice fire to keep us all warm and keep the guys busy doing something. I don't know why - but guys do love to play with fire. The sky was just full of stars - I was hoping to see a fallen star but that did not happen. We noticed that lightning bugs were just sitting on the banks and every once in awhile they would blink/glow. I always thought lightning bugs flew but these were sitting still - I guess they were bumming that summer is over too. I was so enjoying Gods pleasures, and wishing the warm weather did not have to leave.

I do not much care for cold. I like having one good snow storm around christmas and then I am so-o ready for summer. I like the fall because I like to wear sweaters and I love the beautiful colors, but then I know what is coming right around the bend. SNOW!!! UGH

I just barely got to read a couple of blogs the last couple of days and I am just now getting to write a few words. We have been way toooooooo busy at work these last 2 days. I don't know what has gotten into people. Can't we all just get along????? I know people start getting more moody and hateful as the holidays approach. (Some don't need any excuses) I try to remember that not all Gods children get to enjoy his little blessings (like the beautiful stars) and these are the ones that I need to show more of his compassion toward. I know that some will not even make it through the winter and holidays and I do pray that God keeps them as safe and warm as he keeps me.

The phones are starting to get busy again!!! - Oh how I wish I was sitting under the stars again!!! Take some time to look up at the beautiful sky our lord has given us!!You never know what you will see or hear!!!!

Thankful Thursday

I thank the Lord - I am truly blessed. I have a wonderful husband that makes sure we have everything we need. I know I am not the easiest person to live with and I am so glad my husband sticks around to see me come through!!! I know I would not have taken some of my attitudes/mouth from him - So he never ceases to amaze me. Now don't get me wrong their are some times he has deserved the attitude/mouth. I am not one for sweeping things under the rug - I believe if a problem exists you have to call it out and be aware of it to get it worked out. My husband on the other hand is completely the opposite - he does not like to deal with conflicts. We learned a long time ago that when both of our tempers are high we do not need to be around one another. We need some time alone to think things through. When we finally do talk things through, it is amazing how we both bring different views to the table. We think things so differently that his prospective is a view I never even thought of. We have learned to even live with the "we agree to disagree" perspective. There is no doubt in my mind that the Lord meant for us to be together. I had been married before and it didn't work out - I was planning on never marrying again. (famous last words right?) The first time I seen my husband I heard this little tiny voice - deep down inside - saying he's "The One". Of course I resisted this idea for awhile and then he finally won. We became best friends and then started dating. Hubby is truly my best friend and buddy - I would be totally lost without him.

I am blessed to have 2 very wonderful and healthy children. I know I have to get on their case for their choices, or attitudes or behavior every once in awhile, but they are good kids. Even though they are 20 and 18 I do still give my opinion and say-so. I tell them when they become older than me that is when I will stop being their mother. I do let them make their own choices but they do deal with the consequences themselves for their choice. I firmly believe that if people would take the responsiblity for thier choices instead of blaming someone else or whining about it later we would have a better world. It never ceases to amaze me the cry babies in this world. I guess I never knew how bad until I became a dispatcher. I am sorry people - but I did not have to call the police to take care of my own children!!!! When a mother is bringing a 4 yr old child to the pd to speak with an ofc because she is "out of control" - I just want to say "Who is the Mother????" I don't think that it is a good idea to teach children to be afraid of a police ofc or a firefighter anyway because someday they may have to save that childs life. If children are taught to be afraid of them - then it is real hard to get that child to go to the ofc/fireman when their lives are depending on them.

I am especially blessed today because after tonight I am off for 4days!!!!! I am so looking forward to this weekend. I will not be writing/reading until mon night. Hope everyone has a very wonderful and peaceful weekend!!!! My prayer is for everyone to be blessed as I am!!!!

GODS LOVE

Ephesians 3:14-19 14For this reason I kneel before the Father, 15from whom his whole family in heaven and on earth derives its name. 16I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

The question I am wondering about today is - If I didn't know or have Gods Love would I be able to truly Love? Oh sure we can get "Love" from the world but for how long and under what conditions? I cannot even imagine the Love that God had giving his only son to die to save others. I have a son, (and daughter) that I love,adore and thank God for every day, it would be very hard for me to watch them endure and suffer for the sake of others. Would I have that much love??? I pray that as a child of God I can show his love to everyone I come in contact with. I do fail a lot!!! Like when I have been working long hours and have to stop at the store for dinner and the lines are long and only 2 cashiers. (Why 15 lanes and only 2 cashiers?) As I stand there I get aggravated and God reminds me it is not the cashiers fault and not to take it out on them but to show his love. Ok Gods love is......

1.Unconditional = unrestricted - absolute - total
2.Forgivable = pardonable - allowable
3.Everlasting=never ending - eternal

The only way my mind can even comprehend this is to think of the love I have for my family. I love my husband,children,parents,in-laws,aunts,cousins ect...., but could I love everyone with this same love??? There are some moments even with the ones listed above I wonder sometimes!!! Maybe if I just looked at the word Love itself??

Love=Feel affection for - Adore - Be devoted to - Care for - Be fond of

For everyone Lord? What about the person that is parked in the middle of the lane - wanting my parking spot - tapping the steering wheel with that aggravated look on their face while I am trying to put the groceries into my vehicle. I don't even know this person and they don't seem to care about the day I had and the things that I still have to get done. Ok Lord - I smile at them and tell them I am sorry. I hurrriedly get into my car and wave them good bye. Did I show them your Love???

I am finally on my way home and now I am behind a person that is going 30mph in a 45mph. I don't want them to speed just at least do the speed limit!!! Supper is going to take about 45 min to prepare and then eating, homework check/help,dishes,laundry, ect... I am thinking behind this person I will be up to 1:00am. I start to rationalize with God now - I don't wish any bad on this person & I know they are your children too, but Lord right now I need to hurry!! Why is it that everytime I need to hurry I get behind a slow poke - WHY???I then wonder is God trying to tell me something? What lesson am I suppose to learn?

All of a sudden I hear in a very soft,quiet voice - I hear God say, "I chose you to be behind this person for a reason - I knew you would be patient with them and let no harm come to them." WOW!!! Doesn't God just know how to stop us in our tracks. I think just like when my children were younger I knew when they were about to act up sometimes and if I could distract them I knew it would be better for all.

Needless to say I slowly made my way home & had a wonderful evening with a house filled with LOVE!!! Thank You Lord!!!!! I will continue to try to grow in your love so that I can do my best to pass it on to others!!!

NEW BLOGGER

I have read blogs for several years, and I have even tried a couple of times to start my own blog.... but I get discouraged trying to come up with something intelligent, creative, or even worth reading. I have enjoyed reading about everyones thoughts, and expierences. I do have a long list of blogs in my favorites, and I enjoy the variety of writing. I would like to say to my many blogger buddies, "Thank You!" for all the many hours of enjoyment, laughter, and tears.


I cannot make any promises that I will do a better job with this blog than I have with the others in the past - but at least I will give it another shot.


I am a mother of 2 - son: 20yrs & daughter: 18 yrs- my daughter is a Senior this year. I am happily married to their step dad (We hardly ever hear from their father - and that is a blessing). I have been happily married the second time for 8 yrs - dated 11yrs. I have a very stressful job - as a 911 dispatcher. The worst part of the job is constantly getting yelled at - by the people on the phone that needs help and they get so upset that you don't know where they are at and all the people that are involved - all they know is that they don't want to answer any of the questions - they just want someone there NOW!!! Can I just say to get it off my chest - as soon as you make the call - Help is coming, but we do like to know a little bit of the situation before arrival. It is helpful in getting the right people their and the right "equipment" on scene. I know the questions seem like a pain in the "you know where", but they are asked for a reason!!

I thank God for all that he has done for me and for his forgiveness in the times I have broken his heart. I am very blessed and have no reason to complain - but on some days I do. I am so thankful that God is a loving father and continues to hold my hand and guides me back to him.

I want everyone to know that even if I am not writing on my blog - I will constantly be reading. This makes my nights at work - very tolerable- and on some nights keeps me from going insane.
Just remember the lady that pushed through the crowd - not to speak with - or to be noticed - but just to touch the Hem of His garment - This lady would be me. Thank You Lord for the many time I have been able to just touch the hem of your garment!!!!